as per usual

fucking figures, the “open mic” went awful, only the people hosting and participating stayed for the actual open mic...and i don’t do so well in front of small groups...i prefer crowds. but i wouldve done shitty either way, i wasn’t prepared, and this is only the second time i’ve gotten to do this in the 3 years i’ve been interested in and writing poetry.

it’s really fucking frustrating

i think poetry is just some stupid thing i wish i could do
time for a new hobby? :/
not like i’ve been doin it alot anyway

eh, who gives a fuck

and i just want to rant a little bit more about how fucking stupid the teachers are who give extra credit for only going for part of the time, way to reinforce that poetry is a thing older people do to bore the rest of us. (not that whats-her-name was bad, i enjoyed some of her stuff, but it wasn’t exactly engaging to listen to her read...not every poet is a performer, and not every performer is a poet >_< )

and also, just an idea...at a “school hosted” event, it might be a good idea to suggest that people avoid ordering huge fucking margaritas when a large portion of the attendees are underage...though I’d prob be singing a different tune if I weren’t underage XP

also, tuesday is prob a pretty shitty pick of a day for an event, especially one taking place late in the evening.

okay, done venting.
mostly i’m just pissed off about the lack of a crowd, and my idiocy in not preparing better *sigh*