I’m a goddamn emotional wreck.  I think about the past too much.  My emotions are all over the place.  I wish I had a disorder so I could have a reason.  A “get out of self-pity free” card.  
Converting self-pity to self-loathing.  
Replacing my emotions with jaded cynicism.  
So far it’s not working so well.  I need to get the fuck out of here.  Disappointment is too deeply stained here.  Everything I try to do suffers because of this place.
“Sure blame it on the place, if you really tried to do anything, where you lived wouldn’t mean a thing. You could live there if you stopped complaining.”
Well FUCK YOU.  I don’t want your goddamn advice.  I know what I need.  So go fuck yourself.
I’m going crazy.
I need a new me.
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